...in my posterity keeps going through my mind.
It started Monday night when I called and talked to Erin. I don't remember why I called, but I will always remember how I felt when I hung up.
Back in August, when I was thinking I shouldn't teach seminary again, because Aubrey would need me while Chris was gone, I heard the Spirit tell me exactly what He thought of me finding an excuse to not teach another year.
I was sitting in Sacrament meeting and in the middle of the Sacrament prayer, the Spirit, in a very loud and distinct voice spoke. There was nothing quiet about the message, I think He knew who He was talking to. I was told, "I love Aubrey and her children with perfect love. I know their needs better than you. If you do as you have covenanted, I will meet their needs and take care of them."
That pretty much ended the internal discussion I had been having. Somewhere between wanting to do what I knew was right and wanting it to be all right to not do what I should, the answer came very clearly.
That afternoon I met with the Stake President and told him of my experience and that I would be happy to stay in my calling as an early morning seminary teacher. I knew it would still be hard. I would have to spend hours at night preparing a lesson and leave my warm bed VERY early to arrive on time. I knew there would be worries about the students and about my own ability to teach His most valiant children as He would have me do. But I knew somehow it would be OK and we would all be blessed.
...so when I called Erin's house Monday, I heard lots of laughter and love going on in the background. I asked what the party was all about? Erin replied that she and Mike had invited Aubrey and the family down for Family Home Evening.
...and then there was Christmas Eve. Lauren and Caleb had come for the day and at one point, Lauren was gone and Caleb asked if he could borrow my car. He said he would be gone for several hours. He took off without telling anyone where he was headed. It was several hours later when Aubrey called and said Caleb had shown up at their house and was playing games with the kids.
That's when the phrase, "Joy and Rejoicing", started ringing in my heart. I knew this was a blessing fulfilled through my children and their love for each other.
If I had chosen to not teach seminary would Aubrey still have been blessed? Absolutely! Aubrey and Chris are righteous parents and their family is loved by God. But, perhaps, in doing what I was asked to do, there is greater joy for our entire family. Perhaps Aubrey's siblings are finding greater joy in serving her and in loving her. I don't know a lot, but this I know, Aubrey, Chris, Preston, Madison, Abigail and our little Lukee are doing great. Thanks to all those in their lives who care about them.
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As Nephi of old said, "I will go and do the things which the Lords hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the things which he commandeth them."
Thank you Mike and Erin, Danielle and Jake, Caleb and Lauren, Andy and Shay and thanks to God for the blessings we receive.